Weekend Update

I feel like I am in a slump :( 

I dont feel depressed but I am stressing about doing everything on a one income family.

I feel bad for not working, this is the first time I have not ever worked.

I understand I am taking care of the house and baby in the oven but still.

I feel like I am not doing enough.

Things are a little bit tight right now but I know they will pick up in a few months.

I am just a worry wart and I freak about little things like this.

We are also getting into the hang of working with a budget and thats hard.

Its hard when you never really had to budget before.

The weekend flew by! I cant believe its already Monday again.

It was a good weekend. Yesterday all I wanted to do was sleep.

I think I am getting sick cause usually I am so active.

It was a pretty cold weekend for California. So we stayed in most of it.

We got a TON of baby things from our friend Jamie.

She just had a babygirl, Harlow and gave us everything she doesnt us anymore.

Which is basically all brand new :) It was like Christmas day for me all over again! 

This is just the clothes!

 She gave us this seat too which I was eyeing at babies r us!!

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And she gave us a cute pink bathtub, socks, unused diapers, recieveing blankets.

I am truly blessed to have friends like this in our life!

We also got a dresser, toy chest and tv from Jason's family! 

We are going to be ready to move out in no time at all :)

Other then that the weekend was very laid back. 

I tried watching football with Jason but I just dont get it.

I was asking a million questions and poor guy his team lost (saints)

I am still trying to figure out what items I am going to make for my pay it forward.

I think I have an idea but I am not quite sure. But I am going to work on it today!

Hope you all had a great weekend :)

Live.Laugh.Love

I cant stop smiling! I catch myself laughing out loud and smiling constantly at my phone! I seriously have the greatest friends and family a girl could ever ask for! I wouldn't be able to do this pregnancy without them and I am so thankful for them every single day of my life. I finally know what true happiness feels like and soon my baby will make it complete. There is nothing in my life right now that I want, I have everything anyone could ask for.

With how my life was going a few months ago I was really depressed because of how I was being treated by someone I thought I was in love with. But that was just lust and now I see that. I feel like I have truly grown up even more with being pregnant. Its like a blindfold had been lifted off my eyes and I can see the world in a different way. I see when people are trying to screw me, help me and be there for me. I know the fake people from the true people. 

How does life know where to pick itself up and start over? Its so weird to look back on the past and see how sad I was and how I didnt want to talk to anyone. Now I cant wait to hang out with friends and family. Its what I look forward too. I seriously cant wait to see my baby. I want to know what he or she looks like. What he or she sounds like, smiles, and laughs like. I hope he or she looks a lot like me. :) I am just over the moon about bringing a baby into this world. I never thought I would see the day I would be pregnant now I cant see myself any other way! I hope I am a great incubator for my child, and they come out happy and healthy!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!! Love to all!

October!

Where does the time go? I have been waiting for this month because then I will be 3 months along in 2 weeks! Woo Hoo! Hopefully that means my morning sickness will be forever gone. Its been a rough almost 3 months but I wouldn't change it for the world. A lot has changed in these 3 months but I feel like I am finding myself again, and truly learning how to depend on myself and only myself. The father of my child did leave me but is going to be there for the child. It hurt at first because how could he be there for the child but not me? I have now come to copes with it and I am just relieved he is going to be there for his child. Lets just hope he sticks to his word this time.

I used to have so many questions and what if's for the father of my child. Now that I am doing this pregnancy by myself, I am no longer caring about my needs or wants. It is all about my child, and if I am making all the right decisions for her/his future. So far I believe that I am. Has much as I want to not speak to the "sperm donor" haha he has a right to be in her/his life and I want my child to have a father. I just really hope he is the type of father his children can rely on and trust.

I already have my bassinet and pack and play! A girl at work is giving me another pack and play, 3 tubs of baby clothes and more baby stuff. I am so blessed to have people in my life that are willing to help me out so much. And I already have 2 of my friends planning baby showers for me haha I am going to be overloaded with things for this baby. :)

Well it is Saturday and there is a baby convention going on in Austin so I think I might go to that. Or go take a hike near  the lake with my dog for some fresh air and exercise.

Hope you all have a wonderful and great Saturday!

Flashback Friday

This is a picture of my best friend and I back in 2007. This was one of the very first times we met I believe. We used to have so much fun in California. She is married to my ex-husbands best friend which made it even more convient lol. We used to drink at her place all the time, and I had some of the best times with her. Her name is Jessica Graves, and she will always be my best friend :)