my miracle

So I am still in shock and awe that this beautiful little girl came out of me. I was told I was never going to have children and 5 years after hearing that news I had come to the conclusion that I was okay with it. I was okay with being a great Aunt and Cousin. Then BAM I wind up pregnant, and I was beyond thrilled. She truly is a miracle to me, growing inside of me for 9 months and coming out with no health problems. I am truly blessed and every time I look down at her I just cry happy tears. When I feed her it is the most amazing time for me, it makes my bond with her that much stronger. 

I want to be her best friend, the person she can always come to with her problems. Someone she can  trust and never break promises. I want her to be able to tell me anything and not feel ashamed or feel like I am judging her. I want her to learn from my mistakes and have a great bright future. She is my whole entire world and I would do anything for this little girl. When she smiles at me, it just melts my heart. She truly is amazing.

And I couldnt ask for a better partner in raising her. He has embraced it so well and she is his whole entire world too. He has been there since day one and has been such an amazing support system for me. He truly is an amazing man and I am glad I can call him my best friend of ten years and my boyfriend. He does poopy diapers, he tries talking to her when shes fussy, he kisses her all the time. He is simply amazing.

Well I am going to go lay down, we were up cluster feeding all night so I need to get my rest for today. Thank you for all my followers that stuck around even when I wasnt blogging, I appreciate it!

xoxoxo nikki