cant sleep

so i just got back probably 45 mins ago from taking the hubby to the range. I found out last night that there is 98% chance he is going to afgahanstain this next deployment in march/april. I cried so hard and just thinking about it makes tears swell up. I dont think I am strong enough to do this again...Iraq was different when he could call me all the time and I knew he was ok, it was really low key there. I am just scared for his saftey, and everything. I dont know how to explain it in words but I just dont want him to go. I couldnt live life without him, he is my best friend and my everything. I tell him everything and if anything happened to him I wouldnt know what to do...