Reading back on my latest posts always makes me cry, and I dont want to feel like that anymore so I am changing it. I am a grown women and yes I am going through alot but I am getting through it. I am happy deep down but on the surface everything still hurts. I have a job, great family and friends, and better health then some people. Yes my heart hurts but it is healing and I have to do what is right for me, even if it doesn't make sense to others. Whenever I start to doubt myself I look around at all the smiling faces around me and realize what a great life I have, I am just going through a bump in the road. I just wish others would see it like that and not judge.