Hormones or Feelings?

Lately I cant tell if it has been hormones or feelings when I get sad, but I am pretty sure this time it is feelings. This is going to be a "vague" post with no names or any specifics but I just need to get this out. What I am going through is a mind-blowing  horrible thing I am going through! I never thought this would ever happen to me. I dont think I am strong enough to handle all of these emotions. Reality hit me in the gut heart today and all I can think about is that! I feel like I cant breathe or work because it has consumed my whole mind. I am being SUCH a girl, because if this happened to a guy they wouldnt think twice about it! Sometimes I wish I was a boy so I could just not care about anything. Here is a video I think is a great thing Beyonce did, its so true!