Vacay & Update

So I took a mini vaca back home to SoCal. I miss that place so much I wish I could just move back. I had an amazing time and my best friend's, sister's wedding was beautiful! Makes me want to get married again lol. Also I went to Disneyland and I love that place! It was so awesome to see it in Halloween time, it really is a magical place lol. I did have a little baby trouble. I started bleeding which is never good during pregnancy but I went to the hospital saw my little baby on the screen and "she" looked amazing! "She" was sucking her hand, doing flips, stared right at us for like a minute (kinda freaky but cool). I started crying, it was just so amazing.

The morning sickness (all day sickness) is really easing up and I am snacking through out the day and feeling a little more energy. I still have to take it easy cause I was doing a lot in California ie; thats why the bleeding started. Thank goodness the bleeding has stopped but I just dont want it to come back. I am 3 1/2 months pregnant and that just seems crazy to me lol. In a week and a half I will be 4 months along! I have yet to start showing. I am in my size 5 jeans no longer in my size 3's but no bump yet. And since I am just getting over being sick I still have yet to gain any weight back. I hope soon I start gaining and start showing. My Dr said women can start showing anywhere from 14-20 weeks. I just figured with being so petite (5'5) I would show right away. Guess I was wrong lol. Funny thing is though I FEEL like a pumpkin but I look like cantaloupe :)

So it is Halloween weekend and I have nothing planned lol. I think I am going to help pass out candy with my mom and just enjoy this time of year. It is starting to get chilly here in Austin and I got to pull out my peacoat jacket today! YAY but now I dont want it to get any colder lol. It was 46 degrees when I was driving to work, and on lunch it was about MAYBE 60 degrees. We do need cooler weather but I am just not completely ready for it yet. I still need to buy some warm clothing this winter, I have none.

So I really want to start doing my makeup & hair again since I am feeling better, but everytime I wear makeup I dont feel like anyone can tell. I wish I could do my makeup like the Kardashian girls (dont make fun hahahaha). So I have been researching online and watching tutorials (yes I admitted it, now leave me alone hehe ;) ) but it never comes easy to me. Anyone have any advice or good make up tricks or great make up that keeps my blemishes covered ALL DAY LONG and just not for a few hours? I use primer but by mid day my skin is really oily, and you cant even tell I have powder/foundation on anymore. Its annoying.


I will update with pictures from my trip tonight after work!

God's Plan......

I have always believed it but with my plan from God unraveling it just makes me believe even more with my soul that God is always with us. It just sucks that there are people out there that will always judge my life and my decisions I make in it. I just wish some people would just be happy for me. I understand that my situation isn't ideal but still that shouldn't matter, they should be happy for me. I don't even feel like I can really express myself on my blog because it will just start crap that I don't have enough energy to start.

I am happy with my life, my decisions, and the way I am growing up.  I have made the best decisions for myself and my life and at the end of the day thats all that matters. But you see, I have always been the people pleaser and I am just sick of doing it. If I speak my mind I have too much backlash so I don't ever talk about it unless you are one of the very few people I tell.


It still breaks my heart that my little brother, Shaun is not speaking to me. He doesnt believe in me having this child which I cant even comphrend. And he has deleted me off facebook and that is just ridiculous because we are family no matter how much we fight. I just dont get him sometimes. All I want his for him to get  a job, finish high school and get himself on the right path. But when he cusses me out, and speaks to me like I am a POS, it hurts my heart and makes me want to not speak to him. I hope he realizes everything and realizes how selfish and childish this all is.

I have had a best friend for almost ten years! His name is Jason Arrollado and he is just a great guy. Of course I am going to say that about my best friend haha. But we have spoken probably almost everyday over the years and I never get sick of talking to him. We make each other laugh when we both want to cry. We know each other in and out probably better then we know ourselves. And for once in my life it doesn't make me scared that a man in this world knows everything about me; good, bad, silly, stupid, un-sexy, sexy, smart, not so smart, and so on. It doesn't make me want to hide anything about myself or change myself because he is my best friend because of who I am. Maybe they are right, your supposed to marry your best friend. haha But now I am truly finding that is a very true statement.

After being married and divorced I dont think being with someone for a year(s) will make the marriage better or make it worse. Yes I believe in knowing someone before you think about my marriage but I hate how society has made us believe that you should date for X amount of years, be engaged for X amount of years and then get married. Then wait X amount of months/years before having a child. How does society know your life, or your relationship or anything like that? How do they know your friendship of X amount of years/months turned into something more then a friendship and y'all want to take that next step in your life. How can anyone judge your life or think they know what is best for it if they are not in your shoes. Yes of course taking advice but doesnt mean you HAVE to follow that advice. Trust me I am all about proving the skeptics wrong, I dont mean to be that way it just happens. It pushes me to prove them wrong.

Sorry all of this has been weighing heavy on my heart and mind I just needed to get it out. For how outspoken I am, I have surprised myself that I keep a lot in. In fear of pissing  people off and then judging me and talking behind my back. I know pathetic. Lets justs say, if you dont approve of my lifestyle or the decisions I make, please do not write or post or read my blog. Thank You.


Well its almost my bedtime, yes I know I go to bed early haha. This baby just takes all my energy away from me! Sorry for such the LONG posts haha. PS I will be 11 weeks tomorrow!!!!!! :)